Yesterday I went to Target. While I was shopping I passed an encap featuring scales. Ours has been not working properly for quite some time and was on average 15 lbs off. I figured well, might as well pick one of these up! I got home, opened up the scale and got it set up to find the highest number of my life. 246 pounds to be exact. Now I have had two babies and not once in my pregnancies did my weight balloon this high. I feel terrible, I'm slow, not wanting to do as much with my kids. I just feel gross. The crazy thing about this weight is because of the way I feel I don't want to do anything and proceed to cook things that are unhealthy and bad for me and eat them in large quantities. I am addicted to food. It truly doesn't matter how I got to this point and I could list off a million different reasons for my rapid weight gain these past few months. What matters is where am I going from here? What are the steps I need to take to retake my weight, feel healthier and be a better mother and wife?
I read an article on Weight Watchers that talked about what losing ten percent of your weight could do, this is where I am going to start. The truth is I need to lose close to 100 lbs. That figure to me is daunting, but when you break up up to ten percent, 24.6 lbs. it seems a lot more doable. So this is where I am going to start. I am sick of feeling this way, essentially like a tub of lard that can't do anything. My clothes don't fit and are so tight it hurts. I tend to avoid the mirror at all costs these days. When I do it makes me sad. Sad that I have let this get so bad.
My name is Jennifer Kangas and never again will I be 250 lbs.
