Two weeks later, 13 lbs. down.

A few weeks ago I made myself a promise. I was never going to be 246 lbs. again. I sit here now at 233 lbs. My jeans are fitting better, I am sleeping better and I have more energy to play with my kids who are 3 1/2 and 8 months. It hasn't been the easiest but it's one of those things that is worth it. I haven't had a can of pop since Nov. 27th, the date of my first blog. I have been logging all of what I eat at loseit.com. A great way to manage what you eat. I have been drinking a LOT of water. My goal is to lose 10% of my body weight. I have a larger goal weight I would like to achieve. But I am not going there right now. My first goal is 24.6 lbs. 10% of 246 lbs., my highest weight. I have 11.6 more pounds to go to reach this goal.

The weight has FLOWN off so far but I have a feeling it is going to start coming off in a much healthier curve now. The past few days I have been 233. My goal is 2 lbs. a week. I didn't become 246 lbs. overnight so it isn't going to come off with a miracle pill or shake. I am not on a diet. I am eating healthy. Very healthy.

I am going to continue to log my foods for the day and try to keep drinking water like crazy. This is going to be a journey... Not an easy one, not a quick one. But one that is going to change my life and my families life. I don't want to be the mom with no energy, that doesn't fit in the rides at the amusement park or doesn't take the kids to the pool because she is ashamed at what she will look like in a swim suit.

I am starting new. One day at a time.

I will never be this weight again.

How did I get here?

Yesterday I went to Target. While I was shopping I passed an encap featuring scales. Ours has been not working properly for quite some time and was on average 15 lbs off. I figured well, might as well pick one of these up! I got home, opened up the scale and got it set up to find the highest number of my life. 246 pounds to be exact. Now I have had two babies and not once in my pregnancies did my weight balloon this high. I feel terrible, I'm slow, not wanting to do as much with my kids. I just feel gross. The crazy thing about this weight is because of the way I feel I don't want to do anything and proceed to cook things that are unhealthy and bad for me and eat them in large quantities. I am addicted to food. It truly doesn't matter how I got to this point and I could list off a million different reasons for my rapid weight gain these past few months. What matters is where am I going from here? What are the steps I need to take to retake my weight, feel healthier and be a better mother and wife?

I read an article on Weight Watchers that talked about what losing ten percent of your weight could do, this is where I am going to start. The truth is I need to lose close to 100 lbs. That figure to me is daunting, but when you break up up to ten percent, 24.6 lbs. it seems a lot more doable. So this is where I am going to start. I am sick of feeling this way, essentially like a tub of lard that can't do anything. My clothes don't fit and are so tight it hurts. I tend to avoid the mirror at all costs these days. When I do it makes me sad. Sad that I have let this get so bad.

My name is Jennifer Kangas and never again will I be 250 lbs.